Aaah he makes me feel things even though his hands are not touching my body. I want him. I dream about him. How his lips would feel touching my skin. I close my eyes and still hear his sexy voice sendling chills up and down my body. Your words move me in ways I have never known. I can still feel your hands touching me in places making me feel desperately naughty. I can't wait to hear his voice again making my body tremble with need. You know I want you don't you. I want to hear you moan again and say my name. While you are driving harder and harder into my body. The desire for you have grown even more intense. Do you want me cause I am dying for you. I want to touch every inch of your body get wrapped up with desire and the need of you. You blow my mind with the flowery words. Tantalyzing my skin with your mere breath. Can you hear me? I hope you are listening?! Does my mood strike you?! I lick my lips trying to stop the rapid beating of my heart. I dream of endless kisses and of hands everywhere on my body. This is what I want this is my desire. Can you feel my heartbeat. Beating faster and faster wanting you more. We haven't even made love yet and still you drive me wild. I can picture you face while you are touching me. The need of you consuming me more and more. Your going to hear my words and I hope they move you. I want to let my body consume you in all your passions. Kiss you so hard that are breathe becomes a hot boiling fire. Drown in the sound of your voice as it grows hoarse more intense with each breathe. Then smile when I hear you cry out in your pleasure. This is what I want to hear you Orgasm.

Smiles I can't apologize for it I enjoyed it immensely. God yes I want more. I am on the edge of my seat with desire. And it is only increasing more and more. Is it love?! Hell yeah! I am crashing spiraling out of control. Do I want to stop?! NO. I want him more and more. There are not enough words to show my desire for him. Except that I will be humping random light poles and trees for the next millenuim but no biggie. wink. I love you very much you have my heart. Cassandra

Mage

Ours is the wisdom of Solomon,
The Magic of Merlin,
The Fall of Icarus.
From countless ages we have dreamed,
From endless words we have beckoned,
From infinite choices we have suffered.
The world chokes under stifling conformity,
Hopes crumble in the fire of mediocrity,
Heroes die in the snare of pride.
Armageddon is at hand.
Reality is a lie.
The truth is Magic.
Open your eyes
And Awaken.

Well it sounds like a nice intro to a game if we ever get to play the damm thing. Really irritated at the peeps who are supposed to show up and never do and then they do not want to commit to playing a game. Going to have to start breaking some knee caps and being mean. Don't really want to but they are not giving me a reason to be all peachy and nice. Earth to Jey use your damm cell phone and whip these people into action. Well that's my bitch for the week. Not really angry just disappointed. Guess I should try those online gaming rooms after all.

Have you ever had an irrational fear of something? You know its crazy and you shouldn't be afraid but damm you can't settle that heart beat that keeps pumping faster and faster. You start to get sweaty all over your body. Your knees get weak. You start gulping air like a fucking gold fish looking for food. Well it all started when I was a little girl living in a haunted house. Now I know that there are no such things as boggy men at least that's what I tell myself. But have you ever taken a bath and someone opens the door and flushes the toilet. You sit there in that damm bathtub too afraid to move and not wanting to call out. The water in the bathtub no matter how hot just turned icy cold. The hairs on the back of your neck stand up. Your looking around for any sign of movement anything so you can detect whatever presence is there. Then the worst thing possible happens the damm door shuts. You are not sure whether the poltergeist actually left with the slamming of the damm door. Or poor you is stuck in the room with the thing from hell. Yeah well, Fear starts to play itself out. You hug yourself trying to calm yourself down with the lords prayer. But the lord never said anything about ghosts being able to move stuff around. Then you think you are hearing things when you start to hear footsteps coming towards the bathroom. You start to stand up and hurry and grab the towel cause you know that damm thing is outside the door coming to get you. Just as you step out of the bathtub getting ready to run for dear life. You hear a knock at the door. You look around the room ready to go into battle mode looking around in vain as to what is going to work against a ghost. As you inventory the list around you shampoo, (definitely not going to work) Cologne,(yeah if you want the ghost to smell good) toilet paper, (if you want to tepee the son of a bitch)
toothpaste, (do they even have teeth) so you grab the only item that is left the toothbrush. Picture this me Cassandra poised on the edge of the toilet armed raised up in a swooping motion; mouth open to give a war cry. And you hear your mom saying are you done in there yet? I do not know about you but I almost died in that instant. Relief goes through your veins so fast that your about ready to faint. You start to head out of the bathroom feeling like the most stupidest person on the planet. Not only were you hallucinating but your mind was playing tricks on you. You start to walk your way out of the bathroom feeling like a royal idiot when the toilet flushes again. You bolt out of that room like the devil was on your ass screaming like a banshee running for dear life.

Well that tells you the reason why I have an irrational fear of the unknown. This is my problem: I am a 26 year old adult who can't stick her feet out of the covers or even have them hang over the edge of the bed. I know I know there isn't anything going to grab your feet. But I still can't tempt fate and throw my feet over the edge. I hurry and throw the covers back over the feet and get back up to the top of the bed. Yeah I know its silly but what if some mean as monster grabs my ass and pulls me under the bed. Well I do not want that to happen because they would get a good meal I just had Mc Donald's. So there sticks out tongue.

Well that's my log today. Nothing really going on except planning my trip to visit some friends. Trying to stay out of trouble and wonder why the hell my cell phone can't keep a charge. One minute I am having a nice conversation and the next I keep hearing this beeping sound. My battery doesn't have any bar life left and I am about to hang up on someone. So I am running like crazy to the conference room trying to get to my charger in time so that I can still talk when all of a sudden. Dead silence. No matter how many times I try to hook the bastard back up to the charger and turn the damm thing on it stays off. I can't seem to call back the person I am talking to. I am like son of a bitch my mother fucking phone isn't working. And a few other choice swear words that I will not repeat. That's not even cool and I am angry. Hence my reason why I didn't bother getting a cell phone anyways. One if they want to get a hold of me they know how to reach me. Two I can't stand things that don't have a talk time longer then I have strength to talk on the phone. I know you have some friends out there who talk and talk on the phone. You get off the phone and have no idea what the hell they just said but you had fun. Besides that the damm phone is dying and its like 3 hours later. Yeah I have several of those friends and I am one of them myself. I like to talk and hear myself talk. Yeah stupid me guess I am going crazy.

The Walls of Sanity

Tear down the walls of Sanity
I know this is all an Illusion
With the walls that are going to crumble
You're the only one who can decide
Where your mind is going to abide

Tear down the walls of sanity
I am slowly but surely losing ground
For I know that my mind is not sound
It is chalked full of holes
Where I know the good thoughts go
Tear down the walls of sanity
I know I am slipping away
I have nothing to anchor me down
Where are the things that are so dear
The only things that keep me here

Tear down the walls of sanity
I know I am as lost as I can be
I think it is too laste to save me
It has already begun to happen
The walls are already falling down

This one is a long time ago when I thought I was going crazy :)

My thoughts

I want to touch you all over. Feel our bodies skin to skin. Nothing between us but air. Can you feel my heart beat? Cause I can hear yours. I want you closer and closer. Feeling my finger tips graze your body. Do you hear me? I know your listening. I want to taste your lips. Feel the heat of your loves fire. Drown in a sea of kisses. Feel the press of your lips against mine. Do you want it? I know you do. I kiss your neck. Bite softly into your neck. No longer a stranger. Can you feel desire? My eyes are drawn to you. We lock soul to soul. Lick my lips and taste you again. Hmmmm your so good. Do you want more. I am not through yet. We have only begun. I feel you hard next to me. I feel so hot next to your skin. I am burning up. Are you ready? So am I why wait. Things are just getting good. Rubbing my hands all over your body. Can you handle it? I know you can. I wrap my arms around you. Taking you within me. The age old dance begins. I moan out loud. Are we through yet? I think not. You bury yourself deeper. Hmmm feels so good. We lock eyes drawing each other closer. As the passion builds we get wild. Grabbing touching moaning. What else is there. Only you and me. Two heartbeats that are lost. Spiraling out of control. We break in our own bliss. Hearts lost to each other. I smile and tenderly seal our love with a kiss.

Currently writing erotic poetry smiles I am bad aren't I?!

Will post more tonight I tried posting earlier but messed up dammit.! I am such a virgin when It comes to this blogger thing. Waves at Ari hi there girl :)

Hello all if you don't already know me this won't come to a big surprise at all. My name is Cassandra or known as Alloiratheviking. I have any other names but they are not polite to mention here. I cuss to much. I think of sex too much for my own good. I am currently lusting after my best friend who shall remain nameless because you know who you are. Anyways back to me more on that thought later on cause I can go on for days on that subject. I have currently purchased a new cell phone. Although I have never really needed on in the past I have to like cut the damm thing off my fingers cause I have been a phone slut ever since. I know its going to be a passing phase cause like with everything else in my life it only holds my interest for so long. I am like totally into something so intensely and once I am through I am through. I will come back to it later of course but it will be for awhile. Yeah my new thing is writing erotic poetry about my certain obsession. Nothing major just wondering about a certain kiss that we haven't shared yet. Will post that award winning kiss later. *sigh*

I have connected again with some of my really good friends and I am so amazed it's not funny. One of my friends is an Artist. Not just a good artist but an amazing thought provoking artist. I love his works. He is way to damm cute for his own good but I mean that in the best way possible. I love to hear him laugh he makes me want to be a better person even though I know I am not. But there is always hope for me! I can't wait for the Sandman story line you showed me all those years ago. I have weird dreams because of you not that I am complaining or anything cause I am not. But it makes life interesting (raises eyebrow) I do not want to die of boredom over here. *smiles*


Ahh my favorite subject Jason. Ever endearing thought provoking Freston. That man challenges me in so many ways its not funny. I hate him so intensely sometimes its not funny. I love his so much some times its pathetic. He made me the person I am today good or bad. Some of the hardest choices I ever made in my life revolved around him one way or another. He is the reason why I started to write poetry in the first place.

I am wondering about my best bud in the whole wide world. MY buddy who I havent seen forever who was a great help in a really dark period of my life. You helped me more than you can know with just simple hugs and listening to me cry, rant, and rave. You gave me the coolest gifts on the planet. I still have most of them including the poetry book. That has never left my side :). Kill someone for that thing let me tell you.

My life at the moment is pretty much work work work. I do chat online too much for my own good. Internet slut as they say. I have so many goals right now its not even funny.I want to be a RN. Thats my goal and I will be that. My CNA is good enough now cause you are learn so many things about your self. I know I have so much compassion for those who are helpless. I like making them smile and look forward to meeting me the next day. I especially love the hugs that they give. It just drives me up the wall when I see them hurting. yeah I cry with them I am not afraid to admit. I fallen in love with this lady instantly her name was Lucille. We connected and I was like eating my lunch with her. Taking my breaks to be listening to her talking. I bought her a very nice necklace a heart locket with my picture in it. She is the mother I have never known. She was just so cool. Hince with my obsession with I love lucy. We both like the same show. If you are reading this I love you very much. Not a day goes by without thinking of you. I can see your face now in my mind. I hope that you are joined with your husband when your life is over. He sounded like the most heavenly guy on the planet?! I want what you two had and have now.

As you can tell my mind wonders from one subject to the next. yeah I am scatter brained. Read some funny stuff with cosmo the other day that had me laughing my butt off. Shaunte and I were just giggling from the stupid shit they do in there. Hey girl peace. Yeah I am mentioning you cause you are a great person to work with.

I can write some later tonight I am tired right now cause someone who will not be named kept me up till 5 in the morning. Thanks Sandman your the greatest.

I will end this on a poem I wrote the other day Yeah I like to think about this but I would rather much talk. Cuddling is an art not a thing that should ever be overlooked or misplaced in a relationship. One of the most biggest problems in a relationship is not enough cuddling or talking. Its not overrated so try doing it peeps out there. Well here is the poem

Imagine a kiss

Looking into your eyes
Drawing you ever so near
Even that doesnt feel close enough
I want your body to crush me
My body heat feels so elevated
So hot to the touch
I can hardly draw breathe
The need of you is so fierce
Consuming my very soul
Until we make contact
You startle me with your passion
Your lips crushing mne taking me by force
When my will so unsure
We connect soul to soul
Heart understanding without communication
No words are needed
They are simply unnecessary
Pleasure exploding thrugh my body
Rocking my world making me dizzy
I am lost in your shadow
Trying in vain to clear my senses
Our bodies rspond to each other
Our own primal need so clearly shown
You are touching me all over
Your lips bruising my skin
Leaving invisible trails down my body
I rest my head next to your heart
Trying to still the chaos in my body
You bring me to the edge of heaven
Showing me a promise of what can be
When I let you make love to me
This is how I imagine our kiss

Well this is all I have to give for the moment. My bed is calling me. All I want to do is pull the covers over my head and go to sleep. Maybe this huge weight that I carry on my shoulder and on my heart will leave me alone for awhile. *sigh* Life is weird that way. I will remember to ask for what I want in a little more details. I forget that he has a sense of humor. And will he give you want your hearts desire but there are things he doesnt explain like wish giving. SInce I know Freston very well should have to remember to cover all bases in the wish giving shit. I can remember him being very demented in things like wishes in Roleplaying games.Oh well I have to sleep I am going to wreak some havoc online tonight and I am looking forward to it :) I will see you my friends in my dreams. I hope this finds you well and happy :) Going to that safe heaven in my room my lovely beautiful bed.