Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Here's my friendship profile with other people
Virgo Friendship Profile
If you ever need a designated driver for a night on the town, Virgo is the one to call. Not only will they show up for any and every important occasion, they'll be early enough to take care of last minute details and put everything in order. The Virgo is the most helpful friend you'll ever have. They'll help you work out at the gym every day, they'll help you remember not to gorge on junk food, they'll remind you to brush your teeth at least twice a day, and they're there to assist in the planning of the minute details of your life. All this helpfulness might drive you batty. At the same time, if you ever actually do need something, Virgo will be right there for you. They give excellent advice and are fast on their feet in crisis situations. Their practical outlook will help you through the rough times, so long as you don't embarrass them with any big displays of emotion. If you can handle your Virgo buddy jumping up to do the dishes as soon as dinner is over, you'll have a loyal, intelligent and interesting friend for a very long time.
Aries:
Aries Friendship Profile
As fire can be a fleeting thing, so can be the friendship of a Ram. If you want to call an Aries up for a night on the town, you'll have an exciting companion for the evening -- but don't try to make plans for next week. This Sign needs variety in their friendships. If one group of people can't keep up with their constantly changing interests, they'll move on to new friends. Not that they ever lack for companionship: The Ram is well liked for their edge, so making new friends is never a big problem. Friends are nice, but not exactly necessary for independent Aries, who doesn't need a big group to have fun. When they are in one, though, their competitive nature is liable to get the better of them. Don't try to borrow even a cup of sugar from this one. Ruled by the First House of Self, selfishness can sometimes take the upper hand when it's a choice between people and possessions. On the other hand, the Ram can be very warm toward their friends. As long as Aries feels that they are the number one friend in your life, you can count on having an exciting, albeit brief, whirlwind of fun.
Scorpio:
Scorpio Friendship Profile
The mysterious Scorpion may turn out to be the best friend you've ever had -- or your worst enemy. The first rule of friendship with a Scorpio is that you never, ever cross them. Their sting is strong, and they never forget a wrong done to them. That said, it's fairly easy to keep your Scorpio friendship intact, and, as soon as you prove that you are worthy of their devotion, they will be a loyal comrade. You will never know what is on their mind, and you may not have any idea where you stand with them, but their secrets will always fascinate you. Kissing up is a major turnoff for your Scorpion pal, so let them know how great they are without fawning all over them. Scorpio does not have too many friends, but they hold on tight to the ones they do. Friendship is not the most important thing in their lives, but they will stay true to a long-term companion. A Scorpio will gladly give you the shirt off their back if you need it, but you may get the slightest inkling that they have an ulterior motive for doing so. Friendship with the Scorpion will always be full of surprises.
Best Friend Bets: Virgo, Capricorn
Gemini:
Gemini Friendship Profile
The social butterfly of the Zodiac has lots of friends. In fact, the Twins should have twice as many as any other Sign. One side of a Gemini will want to go hang-gliding and run around outside, while the other is keen on sitting cozily at home and playing a board game. Their friends need to be as diverse as they are in order to keep up, or they just need to know when to let Gemini go free. The Twins can bond well with lots of different kinds of groups. If they get bored with one set of people, they always have a few more groups that will be more interesting -- for awhile. Gemini is a sociable creature who enjoys having friends. If you can match their pace and mercurial temperament, you and your friend will have a blast. The best way to develop a bond with a Gemini is to make an intellectual connection. Interested in exploring anything at all? Take along your Gemini pal and enjoy the new perspective they give to even the most ordinary situations. If you can match wits with this one, they'll respect your intellect and work to develop this worthwhile friendship.
Best friend Bets: Aries, Leo
Virgo Friendship Profile
If you ever need a designated driver for a night on the town, Virgo is the one to call. Not only will they show up for any and every important occasion, they'll be early enough to take care of last minute details and put everything in order. The Virgo is the most helpful friend you'll ever have. They'll help you work out at the gym every day, they'll help you remember not to gorge on junk food, they'll remind you to brush your teeth at least twice a day, and they're there to assist in the planning of the minute details of your life. All this helpfulness might drive you batty. At the same time, if you ever actually do need something, Virgo will be right there for you. They give excellent advice and are fast on their feet in crisis situations. Their practical outlook will help you through the rough times, so long as you don't embarrass them with any big displays of emotion. If you can handle your Virgo buddy jumping up to do the dishes as soon as dinner is over, you'll have a loyal, intelligent and interesting friend for a very long time.
Aries:
Aries Friendship Profile
As fire can be a fleeting thing, so can be the friendship of a Ram. If you want to call an Aries up for a night on the town, you'll have an exciting companion for the evening -- but don't try to make plans for next week. This Sign needs variety in their friendships. If one group of people can't keep up with their constantly changing interests, they'll move on to new friends. Not that they ever lack for companionship: The Ram is well liked for their edge, so making new friends is never a big problem. Friends are nice, but not exactly necessary for independent Aries, who doesn't need a big group to have fun. When they are in one, though, their competitive nature is liable to get the better of them. Don't try to borrow even a cup of sugar from this one. Ruled by the First House of Self, selfishness can sometimes take the upper hand when it's a choice between people and possessions. On the other hand, the Ram can be very warm toward their friends. As long as Aries feels that they are the number one friend in your life, you can count on having an exciting, albeit brief, whirlwind of fun.
Scorpio:
Scorpio Friendship Profile
The mysterious Scorpion may turn out to be the best friend you've ever had -- or your worst enemy. The first rule of friendship with a Scorpio is that you never, ever cross them. Their sting is strong, and they never forget a wrong done to them. That said, it's fairly easy to keep your Scorpio friendship intact, and, as soon as you prove that you are worthy of their devotion, they will be a loyal comrade. You will never know what is on their mind, and you may not have any idea where you stand with them, but their secrets will always fascinate you. Kissing up is a major turnoff for your Scorpion pal, so let them know how great they are without fawning all over them. Scorpio does not have too many friends, but they hold on tight to the ones they do. Friendship is not the most important thing in their lives, but they will stay true to a long-term companion. A Scorpio will gladly give you the shirt off their back if you need it, but you may get the slightest inkling that they have an ulterior motive for doing so. Friendship with the Scorpion will always be full of surprises.
Best Friend Bets: Virgo, Capricorn
Gemini:
Gemini Friendship Profile
The social butterfly of the Zodiac has lots of friends. In fact, the Twins should have twice as many as any other Sign. One side of a Gemini will want to go hang-gliding and run around outside, while the other is keen on sitting cozily at home and playing a board game. Their friends need to be as diverse as they are in order to keep up, or they just need to know when to let Gemini go free. The Twins can bond well with lots of different kinds of groups. If they get bored with one set of people, they always have a few more groups that will be more interesting -- for awhile. Gemini is a sociable creature who enjoys having friends. If you can match their pace and mercurial temperament, you and your friend will have a blast. The best way to develop a bond with a Gemini is to make an intellectual connection. Interested in exploring anything at all? Take along your Gemini pal and enjoy the new perspective they give to even the most ordinary situations. If you can match wits with this one, they'll respect your intellect and work to develop this worthwhile friendship.
Best friend Bets: Aries, Leo
Somewhere in my dark recesses of my troubled and sometimes choatic mind I get an enlightened version or dreamscape of comprehension where I am standing outside of my body looking at me wondering what the hell I am doing?!!! I had this dream of traveling outside of my body and understanding all things that I am doing wrong and having so many ideas on how to fix them but the moment I got back to my body I was utterly exhausted. I couldn't even lift my head.... I have done this many times before with knowing certain stuff about people while they were sleeping. Its easier if you are closer to the person to do it cause you have to travel outside of your body and fixate on that person and just go there. I have the most vivid dreams sometimes where I will be peaking on young lovers and know what each other is thinking. One memory that stands out in my mind is this japanese couple they were speaking there own langauge but I understood somehow because I think it was me in a past life?!!! Sounds strange but I thought I recognized them from somewhere and thats is the only explaination I have right now.
I drowned one time which all I can remember is the feeling of uptmost peace and harmony while being forced back into the pain rackled body that was fighting to breathe through fluid filled lungs. I remember that my memory was completely gone of what I was trying to remember most and something that I promised myself that I wouldn't forget has been forgotten... There are times when I feel that I could almost stumble upon my memory somehow that if I just jar it right that all things will become clear. I have not given up on this whole understanding the cosmos thing that I know will never be fully answered till I am dead. But I do not necessarily want it to be right this second either because I am not through here yet in this world. I know that I am going to die very old near the beach because I can smell the salt in the air. I remember in a dream that I looked down to see my hands and they were old with age spots. I had needle work in my hands that I looked up into the sky and saw seagulls. This necessarily might not happen since your fate is not necessarily one hundred percent set out in front of you. I believe that we are giving so many choices to fulfill our destiny and we can either do it the hard way or the easy way. But who wants an easy life I for one do not want it because I know where my strengths lie and where my weaknesses are. Gulps boy do I ever....
Well thats enough about my little theories on life not that it matters much to you anyways...
I drowned one time which all I can remember is the feeling of uptmost peace and harmony while being forced back into the pain rackled body that was fighting to breathe through fluid filled lungs. I remember that my memory was completely gone of what I was trying to remember most and something that I promised myself that I wouldn't forget has been forgotten... There are times when I feel that I could almost stumble upon my memory somehow that if I just jar it right that all things will become clear. I have not given up on this whole understanding the cosmos thing that I know will never be fully answered till I am dead. But I do not necessarily want it to be right this second either because I am not through here yet in this world. I know that I am going to die very old near the beach because I can smell the salt in the air. I remember in a dream that I looked down to see my hands and they were old with age spots. I had needle work in my hands that I looked up into the sky and saw seagulls. This necessarily might not happen since your fate is not necessarily one hundred percent set out in front of you. I believe that we are giving so many choices to fulfill our destiny and we can either do it the hard way or the easy way. But who wants an easy life I for one do not want it because I know where my strengths lie and where my weaknesses are. Gulps boy do I ever....
Well thats enough about my little theories on life not that it matters much to you anyways...
Sunday, August 24, 2003
Have you ever had one of those days that it just goes bad no matter how hard you try to prevent anything from happening taking some precautions and hoping that things turn out right but they don't. My resident which will remain nameless is dying and I do not know how to help her from being afraid. She had me in tears today because she was so frightened and I was at a loss of words to help her. I tried comforting the best I could with physical contact because I highly respect the woman even at her most tyranical moments I enjoyed her company because she is so spunky. She is dying with so much pain and every little movement to change her is a test in agony so you must be precise and quick about what your doing. WHich I am both and incredibly quick she forgets that I am there. I will greatly miss her because she has touched a place in my heart and I find her passing very difficult to handle. My emotions have been running pretty high and I try not to think about it. That is all I have to say Cassandra
Saturday, August 23, 2003
Well this is my new friend from SF and I am greatly pleased that I was forward enought to make him share some of his works with me. I am tremendously impressed with his writing and in no way going to let him go as a friend. Damm if only I could even immulate some of this talent I would be greatly enhanced as a writer. I feel like a Wayne's World movie and bowing down and saying I am not worthy I am not worthy. Dear God I am not worthy.... Love you all Cassanda
Druken_Poet: This one is called "Baby"
Druken_Poet: Baby the stars are shining over the nightfall here under the sky we are looking into each other's eyes. Tears don't need to fall we are closer to each other the longer we stare into night sky. Don't let fear over take your heart let the night come closer to each of our lives. Our obsessions are not going to be the only things taking over our heart's but our love will be fierce something that says a lot before it has anything to do with either of us in our life. Close your eyes now just imagine what may come of our dreams and in the flesh what it will do to combine us like dreams made into the flesh of holy nightmares sewn together to make happiness true.
alloiratheviking: cool nice start
Druken_Poet: Oh it will be like a torrent of energies thrown together strewn to fight one another yet love conquers all and the nightmares fighting against each ones favorite ending must lose out to the night sky's effect of uniting lovers in their mitts. Baby let the stars emit their power of love let the souls of those divided feel it in their soul's when looking to share something with those so far apart. The night is not the companion of liaison but the necessary need of a lover's heart. Look up now remember our love the touches the whispers listen to the nights ghostly breezes. She speaks my words of love a whisper a tethered faint hope of my heart's deep reveries of love.
Druken_Poet: Listen to her reach out over the distance feel her as you felt me against your tender skin as she gently glides her kisses over you and whispers my sweet words of wholehearted passions. Remember only this if you remember anything my love for you is there always if you doubt anything do not doubt the love I have for you. Remember the night sky is where we are always welcomed in our union even when we are far apart
Druken_Poet: Baby the stars are shining over the nightfall here under the sky we are looking into each other's eyes. Tears don't need to fall we are closer to each other the longer we stare into night sky. Don't let fear over take your heart let the night come closer to each of our lives. Our obsessions are not going to be the only things taking over our heart's but our love will be fierce something that says a lot before it has anything to do with either of us in our life. Close your eyes now just imagine what may come of our dreams and in the flesh what it will do to combine us like dreams made into the flesh of holy nightmares sewn together to make happiness true.
alloiratheviking: cool nice start
Druken_Poet: Oh it will be like a torrent of energies thrown together strewn to fight one another yet love conquers all and the nightmares fighting against each ones favorite ending must lose out to the night sky's effect of uniting lovers in their mitts. Baby let the stars emit their power of love let the souls of those divided feel it in their soul's when looking to share something with those so far apart. The night is not the companion of liaison but the necessary need of a lover's heart. Look up now remember our love the touches the whispers listen to the nights ghostly breezes. She speaks my words of love a whisper a tethered faint hope of my heart's deep reveries of love.
Druken_Poet: Listen to her reach out over the distance feel her as you felt me against your tender skin as she gently glides her kisses over you and whispers my sweet words of wholehearted passions. Remember only this if you remember anything my love for you is there always if you doubt anything do not doubt the love I have for you. Remember the night sky is where we are always welcomed in our union even when we are far apart
TORN
I don't know what to say to you. The words go in droves like lemmings ready and willing to die without some sort of actual structure guiding them to safety. Certain things stand out to me sort of like an error or breaking over and over in your mind such as the first line. I miss what I never had? Hummm...peculiar to miss something you have never had so how do you know you miss it? I cry for the future I cry for the dates that will go bad for the dreams that will make me mad sad broken torn up inside. Tell me oh so greatly how I am fatal to myself before I am chewed up in my life by the ever-gearing need to eat the sour grapes of wrath. In my naked needs I dance I flow I linger on in the night haunting those that watch me like a fire fly haunting childhood memories.
Druken_Poet: Nothing can ever be the same as it once was when we were children. Days are gone life is now restricted at sunset though I am allowed to break out of the normal ties that bines me in my flesh stealing the words the movements that I once only relished as a child. I am looking forward to trying to recapture in sudden madness when dawn broaches the darkness memory will lapse once more when questioned about what took place you will say what ever do you mean. Oh what we do miss in the night which are nightmares we shed of growing up the need of our dreams eventually becomes over exhausting now for the tears now for the overwhelming memories drive us mad and with only the night and her dancing fairies that allow our madness certain sanctuary for reprieve.
Druken_Poet: Dance with me in the night see where our memories will take us in release to madness's inclination to superimpose a life on us that only once seemed much like a nightmare. The moonlight has a way of turning us into masochistic dirty whores that do her dirty work. THE END
I don't know what to say to you. The words go in droves like lemmings ready and willing to die without some sort of actual structure guiding them to safety. Certain things stand out to me sort of like an error or breaking over and over in your mind such as the first line. I miss what I never had? Hummm...peculiar to miss something you have never had so how do you know you miss it? I cry for the future I cry for the dates that will go bad for the dreams that will make me mad sad broken torn up inside. Tell me oh so greatly how I am fatal to myself before I am chewed up in my life by the ever-gearing need to eat the sour grapes of wrath. In my naked needs I dance I flow I linger on in the night haunting those that watch me like a fire fly haunting childhood memories.
Druken_Poet: Nothing can ever be the same as it once was when we were children. Days are gone life is now restricted at sunset though I am allowed to break out of the normal ties that bines me in my flesh stealing the words the movements that I once only relished as a child. I am looking forward to trying to recapture in sudden madness when dawn broaches the darkness memory will lapse once more when questioned about what took place you will say what ever do you mean. Oh what we do miss in the night which are nightmares we shed of growing up the need of our dreams eventually becomes over exhausting now for the tears now for the overwhelming memories drive us mad and with only the night and her dancing fairies that allow our madness certain sanctuary for reprieve.
Druken_Poet: Dance with me in the night see where our memories will take us in release to madness's inclination to superimpose a life on us that only once seemed much like a nightmare. The moonlight has a way of turning us into masochistic dirty whores that do her dirty work. THE END
Pristine Eyes
The night has me chasing after her as I stare deep into her pristine eyes I fall from a weakness in my knees. I am worn out from being violated again and again. Penetration flowing deep into my mind. At a whim I am chasing after the cosmic energy in a dash to catch the whirlwind of motions that are there to be gathered by outstretched hands. I am afraid to close my eyes because when I wake from this moment I fear the motions of my usefulness will have been caught and drawn out of my heart. These emotions overpower my body they break me down the longer I am down on my knees.
Druken_Poet: In my mind I will be trapped because when I look up I am caught caged into the trap which is that of my body I will see that really I have been caught by age and then see that I am a matter for decay. My stomach is churning inside and out trying to keep itself full and not relieving itself in the attempt to black out and confide in my subconscious mind. I see colored spots of heaven clouding over in my vision my judgment failing to recognize what I have always been able to realize. The closer I come to understanding what it is that draws me deeper into the nights pristine vision the farther away I truly get to finding what I think is real.
Druken_Poet: The things which hurt you dig themselves in as I try to remove my flesh the jokes are open and tearing away at my flesh and don't tell me it wasn't so when it was dear mommy and daddy the hideous visions I see at night keep me awake. I don't know why I sleep only after I die each night in the arms of death's kisses. I run in circles as I try to avoid the pace of the moons approach I close my eyes and walk ahead pressing my soul deeper to relax to show the night that I am not her prey to victimize sometimes ravage me yes destroy me no for I am the hunter the devious one in the shadows lurking only to find my savage roots that blow in as the light extinguishes and the shadows grow.
Druken_Poet: The end.
The night has me chasing after her as I stare deep into her pristine eyes I fall from a weakness in my knees. I am worn out from being violated again and again. Penetration flowing deep into my mind. At a whim I am chasing after the cosmic energy in a dash to catch the whirlwind of motions that are there to be gathered by outstretched hands. I am afraid to close my eyes because when I wake from this moment I fear the motions of my usefulness will have been caught and drawn out of my heart. These emotions overpower my body they break me down the longer I am down on my knees.
Druken_Poet: In my mind I will be trapped because when I look up I am caught caged into the trap which is that of my body I will see that really I have been caught by age and then see that I am a matter for decay. My stomach is churning inside and out trying to keep itself full and not relieving itself in the attempt to black out and confide in my subconscious mind. I see colored spots of heaven clouding over in my vision my judgment failing to recognize what I have always been able to realize. The closer I come to understanding what it is that draws me deeper into the nights pristine vision the farther away I truly get to finding what I think is real.
Druken_Poet: The things which hurt you dig themselves in as I try to remove my flesh the jokes are open and tearing away at my flesh and don't tell me it wasn't so when it was dear mommy and daddy the hideous visions I see at night keep me awake. I don't know why I sleep only after I die each night in the arms of death's kisses. I run in circles as I try to avoid the pace of the moons approach I close my eyes and walk ahead pressing my soul deeper to relax to show the night that I am not her prey to victimize sometimes ravage me yes destroy me no for I am the hunter the devious one in the shadows lurking only to find my savage roots that blow in as the light extinguishes and the shadows grow.
Druken_Poet: The end.
"The Pain of God"
wigglyworm_going_down: You filthy whore I who was there torn out of my thoughts are the cause for the pain I feel.
I am violated, desecrated, raped of all of my senses my whole self-becoming empty.
I look out of myself to see if there can be made something of my existence but there is nothing beyond the hate that I have driving me to kill you.
wigglyworm_going_down: In my absence of faith you make me feel pure of what I am the loathing that grows underneath tight flesh penetrates me speaking to me like placid clouds of hallucinating contrite forcing me out of my head.
I am afraid I can't help myself to the needs I feel stuck with when all I want is to find some way to make you feel empty like me.
Take from me what you think you can because when it comes time I am going to take it out on you this wrath I need to release to you I will come for you sleep now for later you wont be able to find your rest.
wigglyworm_going_down: You filthy whore I will fuck you up can you feel the pain as I drive the center of my rage into you as I feel it searing my flesh and eroding away at my mind as each second passes my life diminishes?
Do what you feel best run if you think you can find a refuge to hide in when night falls and my heart has bled completely away I will show you nothing is sacred there is no god our pain is the emptiness the barren placement of self dissolving in acids.
I am not afraid to die for my convictions for I am what I was born doing what suits me and what I was created to do was follow my desire and kill those that break me into pieces.
wigglyworm_going_down: The pain of god is the pain of man no god no man no man no god exists enough to know the dangers of the second coming no more life no more thoughts I die you die we follow each other. God is for I think and once I cease my thought god's pain begins too.
I am just crazy and you will see even if you don't care I will force you to see what I have inside of me that causes our pain no god your god might try and take me away but just stay with me a little while I will fix you up so you can see.
wigglyworm_going_down: What I feel you will know you might realize when you are left stained what tainted love can do or when you are left depressed and obsessed with believing you can be helped by god but if you ever saw there are no such things as super hero's or gods then you learn the pain of chaos and emptiness go in hand.
The ideas tossing and turn yearning to be bleached out of your head you seek death you desire fulfillment to a means to end your suffering you cry you dine on life's necessary diet of poisons but nothing will finish you completely off cowards we are men, mice and the such.
wigglyworm_going_down: Look out believers the truth is there look to long to hard maybe you might just see right straight through and lose your mind lose yourself find the priest who ass fucks for delight and tells you god approves of such delights. Yes you can easily be fucked over no last minute crusades only mass hysteria might cleanse the spirit in its urge to cleanse the flesh of death mayhem and destruction why not begin your rampant march of death find in you what I see in myself once you understand why you are empty nothing ever feels the same.
wigglyworm_going_down: The End
wigglyworm_going_down: You filthy whore I who was there torn out of my thoughts are the cause for the pain I feel.
I am violated, desecrated, raped of all of my senses my whole self-becoming empty.
I look out of myself to see if there can be made something of my existence but there is nothing beyond the hate that I have driving me to kill you.
wigglyworm_going_down: In my absence of faith you make me feel pure of what I am the loathing that grows underneath tight flesh penetrates me speaking to me like placid clouds of hallucinating contrite forcing me out of my head.
I am afraid I can't help myself to the needs I feel stuck with when all I want is to find some way to make you feel empty like me.
Take from me what you think you can because when it comes time I am going to take it out on you this wrath I need to release to you I will come for you sleep now for later you wont be able to find your rest.
wigglyworm_going_down: You filthy whore I will fuck you up can you feel the pain as I drive the center of my rage into you as I feel it searing my flesh and eroding away at my mind as each second passes my life diminishes?
Do what you feel best run if you think you can find a refuge to hide in when night falls and my heart has bled completely away I will show you nothing is sacred there is no god our pain is the emptiness the barren placement of self dissolving in acids.
I am not afraid to die for my convictions for I am what I was born doing what suits me and what I was created to do was follow my desire and kill those that break me into pieces.
wigglyworm_going_down: The pain of god is the pain of man no god no man no man no god exists enough to know the dangers of the second coming no more life no more thoughts I die you die we follow each other. God is for I think and once I cease my thought god's pain begins too.
I am just crazy and you will see even if you don't care I will force you to see what I have inside of me that causes our pain no god your god might try and take me away but just stay with me a little while I will fix you up so you can see.
wigglyworm_going_down: What I feel you will know you might realize when you are left stained what tainted love can do or when you are left depressed and obsessed with believing you can be helped by god but if you ever saw there are no such things as super hero's or gods then you learn the pain of chaos and emptiness go in hand.
The ideas tossing and turn yearning to be bleached out of your head you seek death you desire fulfillment to a means to end your suffering you cry you dine on life's necessary diet of poisons but nothing will finish you completely off cowards we are men, mice and the such.
wigglyworm_going_down: Look out believers the truth is there look to long to hard maybe you might just see right straight through and lose your mind lose yourself find the priest who ass fucks for delight and tells you god approves of such delights. Yes you can easily be fucked over no last minute crusades only mass hysteria might cleanse the spirit in its urge to cleanse the flesh of death mayhem and destruction why not begin your rampant march of death find in you what I see in myself once you understand why you are empty nothing ever feels the same.
wigglyworm_going_down: The End
I am decay's worst nightmare the fear I show when you look at me is nil in the comparison of those afraid of catching my disease. I open my mouth up wide see for yourself where my distain might devour you I am found. Where other's destitutions unfold I am found hollow and whole. As I open wide, to show you my deep underside my tongue will swirl around like a delightful lover's tongue in search for union. What delights might be found in me might be from you. The horrors you find inside will only be the decimations I succeed in sucking out of you. Place no blame upon me for the things you have knowledge of and things I that which intrigue me only become reality by my needs to become true to showing you the reality of life through me. Often in times of my own needs the reality of what others want out of me only intensifies the ambiguities of my own reticent self. I can protest against such feelings inside of myself but when I stare deeper into the inconsolable silence standing between yourself and myself the madness I find really makes the depravity I feel come to life. Although, you hope to find in me love you find yourself like a mirror intensities divide between us the person you see before you is not the person you feel standing out and looking at the reflections passing back to us.
wigglyworm_going_down: There are no perfections or incomplete desolations no places to hide no places to run away to. Think of it you and I we are tied together lovers united with one goal one passion lovers to be who are entangled in a fantastic union. You hate me but I love you together what are we? We might be built like stars made of a collision of the impossible faults that one hates while the other loves. Whose stands out more me because I am the diseased half of you that you hope will be shed eventually or you since I make you spiral downward. What are these dreams we dream of do we dream them together as one being or do you dream them and I am only there watching you fulfill them as you make them seem real? I wonder if you will love me if I die for you to show you my love is real? Alive am I when I feel as though attached to you in ways that make me know I am driving you insane deeper are my ways of love my madness is only just my precarious way of showing you how much I care for the both of us. I wear a grin each time I see you feel the pain I cause us. I see you smiling when you think you have worn me out. Do you think you will bleed my heart to death by blocking me out of your mental thoughts and sharing smaller portions of your dreams at night? What do you think will happen do you think I will go mad beat myself in the head our head your head is my head. Do you honestly believe I am so fragile that you can take me out of this world so easily make me decay before I can show you my resolutions are whole? I have the control you have the words I have the power of your body you speak your mind but what can it do to me when all I am is just another part of you. I will ask you one final question do you think this fight will ever be finished do you believe our power struggle will ever be won you with your might of mind mine with the power to decimate you by abusing our physical prowl ness? In the end you are the night and I am the day fight me and you fight nothing because we are the same.
Wiggle_worm_going_down written by him
Need I say more???
Shape my mind! She repeats herself she repeats herself she finds
herself repeating herself. How many times does she repeat herself she
repeats herself as many times as it takes to remind herself that she
repeats herself. She learns to displace herself to forget that she
repeats herself again she finds herself repeating herself meaning,
combining, thinking, those important words she repeats to herself.
Subconscious mind unraveling within time she finds her conscious
streams of fluid forms her very words repeat she finds herself in
nature as an animal with no beat, no memory, no thoughts,that can be
kept she is lost she is found touching herself with forgotten desire.
She repeats herself to our displeasure we lose our motives of
pleasure as we hear her repeat herself transposing her own
transgressions through repeated pleasuring desire for herself. We are
left more alone to shape ourselves to define our minds. She repeats
herself as many times as it takes to acknowledge that she repeats
herself she loses herself we are ourself witnesses to her repeating
herself.
The End
wigglyworm_going_down: There are no perfections or incomplete desolations no places to hide no places to run away to. Think of it you and I we are tied together lovers united with one goal one passion lovers to be who are entangled in a fantastic union. You hate me but I love you together what are we? We might be built like stars made of a collision of the impossible faults that one hates while the other loves. Whose stands out more me because I am the diseased half of you that you hope will be shed eventually or you since I make you spiral downward. What are these dreams we dream of do we dream them together as one being or do you dream them and I am only there watching you fulfill them as you make them seem real? I wonder if you will love me if I die for you to show you my love is real? Alive am I when I feel as though attached to you in ways that make me know I am driving you insane deeper are my ways of love my madness is only just my precarious way of showing you how much I care for the both of us. I wear a grin each time I see you feel the pain I cause us. I see you smiling when you think you have worn me out. Do you think you will bleed my heart to death by blocking me out of your mental thoughts and sharing smaller portions of your dreams at night? What do you think will happen do you think I will go mad beat myself in the head our head your head is my head. Do you honestly believe I am so fragile that you can take me out of this world so easily make me decay before I can show you my resolutions are whole? I have the control you have the words I have the power of your body you speak your mind but what can it do to me when all I am is just another part of you. I will ask you one final question do you think this fight will ever be finished do you believe our power struggle will ever be won you with your might of mind mine with the power to decimate you by abusing our physical prowl ness? In the end you are the night and I am the day fight me and you fight nothing because we are the same.
Wiggle_worm_going_down written by him
Need I say more???
Shape my mind! She repeats herself she repeats herself she finds
herself repeating herself. How many times does she repeat herself she
repeats herself as many times as it takes to remind herself that she
repeats herself. She learns to displace herself to forget that she
repeats herself again she finds herself repeating herself meaning,
combining, thinking, those important words she repeats to herself.
Subconscious mind unraveling within time she finds her conscious
streams of fluid forms her very words repeat she finds herself in
nature as an animal with no beat, no memory, no thoughts,that can be
kept she is lost she is found touching herself with forgotten desire.
She repeats herself to our displeasure we lose our motives of
pleasure as we hear her repeat herself transposing her own
transgressions through repeated pleasuring desire for herself. We are
left more alone to shape ourselves to define our minds. She repeats
herself as many times as it takes to acknowledge that she repeats
herself she loses herself we are ourself witnesses to her repeating
herself.
The End
Friday, August 22, 2003
Orgasm
A stolen heart,
Lays beneath my kiss.
A Hot breath.
Barely caught.
A gasp.
A soft whimper.
Deep in your belly.
Lava flows in orgasm.
It seems to,
Go on forever.
I control its flow.
Its ebb.
Its rise again,
To a deeper place.
Where the soul and heart,
Become one white hot nugget.
Of passion, love,
Blooming.
A mushroom.
Filling your whole being.
An exquisite release.
Every cell explodes,
In this crimson fire.
Only to be led,
To a new place.
Where my soul and heart,
Greet thee once again.
On this higher plain,
And you, forever, belong,
Only to me.
Bo...8/19/03
Need I say more this write has a lot of emotion put into it from the Song Prince!!! He is one of the members of my erotic poetry group that definetly needs mentioning!!! Holy hell this poem is smoking hot and hold on to your foreskins men this is a winner boys.... Muah Cassandra
A stolen heart,
Lays beneath my kiss.
A Hot breath.
Barely caught.
A gasp.
A soft whimper.
Deep in your belly.
Lava flows in orgasm.
It seems to,
Go on forever.
I control its flow.
Its ebb.
Its rise again,
To a deeper place.
Where the soul and heart,
Become one white hot nugget.
Of passion, love,
Blooming.
A mushroom.
Filling your whole being.
An exquisite release.
Every cell explodes,
In this crimson fire.
Only to be led,
To a new place.
Where my soul and heart,
Greet thee once again.
On this higher plain,
And you, forever, belong,
Only to me.
Bo...8/19/03
Need I say more this write has a lot of emotion put into it from the Song Prince!!! He is one of the members of my erotic poetry group that definetly needs mentioning!!! Holy hell this poem is smoking hot and hold on to your foreskins men this is a winner boys.... Muah Cassandra
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Well Cassandra has gone and done it he he he. What you ask? Grins very happily I went and got my self pierced a couple of times and a tat is on the way of Sandmans artwork on my shoulder very sexy if you ask me!!! Tomorrow I am going to dye my hair a firey red color and add a few black streaks for good measure... around the front part of the hair towards the bangs and get a good hair cut pamper myself a little bit... Haven't done that in a while but I need to do something with all the time I have been working lately which hasn't let me do anything I want to do but work and no play. I am getting my navel pierced navel pierced next week and getting my tat set up for when I get some time off work. Grins things are finally looking up and hopefully I will get a car soon.... I say please please please get a car soon because bicycling to work is a bitch specially with 17 hour days....
But I will get a web cam soon so that I can show off my piercings to the fullest besides losing weight does wonders to your ego let me tell you lol. You look all soft and curvy which helps with those nice leather pants that I bought. I have a nice belt to go with them and a firey red shirt to go with I think I will turn a few heads tomorrow what do you think? With my hair, the clothes, and a nice soft lavender perfume I think I will get the reaction I deserve which is holy shit she is a freak on wheels lol.. Just kidding I was being a little funny here. Lack of sleep with do that to you and sleep deprivation specially with Cassandra isn't too pretty cause her addittude goes down a few notches.... Well I am out of here till tomorrow talk to you later Muah
But I will get a web cam soon so that I can show off my piercings to the fullest besides losing weight does wonders to your ego let me tell you lol. You look all soft and curvy which helps with those nice leather pants that I bought. I have a nice belt to go with them and a firey red shirt to go with I think I will turn a few heads tomorrow what do you think? With my hair, the clothes, and a nice soft lavender perfume I think I will get the reaction I deserve which is holy shit she is a freak on wheels lol.. Just kidding I was being a little funny here. Lack of sleep with do that to you and sleep deprivation specially with Cassandra isn't too pretty cause her addittude goes down a few notches.... Well I am out of here till tomorrow talk to you later Muah
Thursday, August 14, 2003
Hello its the overworked under payed work a holic that can't seem to get enough of the dreary life of my hospital germ infested place thats needs no mentioning her due to sue happy shit heads. But non the less do not ever if you want to keep your sanity and not feel like you are becoming one of the residents work 17 hour days if you can so help it. My life is cruising around the Starbucks that is happily only a few short blocks away from a orgasmic experience with a delectable coffee flavor that I am crushing on Mocha Malt Venti. Yeah baby. HOLY HELL that is the best stuff on earth and I already have my frequent flyer miles saved up so tomorrow all my coffee is free since I always seem to have starbucks runs for my fellow nurses which helps me get free coffee everytime I go. They haven't figured out that I volunteer so that they can pay for my coffee he he he. Evil and nice SO basically I have an alternative motive for happily aggreeing to get coffee when I know that basically they are getting my coffee for free and I also get tips for going which they let me keep the change which means that I get more coffee later?!! Evil and scheming yes but hey it works and keeps me in the favorite thing that I like my coffee addiction that seems to make me happy?!! Better than sex I am not sure about that but it sure does kick up the taste buds and I am zinging aroung my work station and happy to be there until my coffee kick is over. Since that I have to be at work tomorrow at 7:00 then I will be leaving around 6:15 so that I can be there before 7:00 in the morning and start getting my group dressed and I hope that none of my residents are shower days because they seem to take up too much time and throws your schedule off wack.... Well I need to wake up early and get some sleep. Nothing much happening except that I am trying to buy a car and hopefully in January I will have enough tax returns readily available to pay for an automobile that I will have to name of course. My favorite thing to do is to name my favorite gadgets just in case you do not know this. My bike is called Jake because hell I do not know but I think its better to be riding a male than a female any day!!! Sorry about that any ladies that might be offended with that statement lol.... Muah I am outta here...
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
I am completely and utterly exhausted mind, body, and soul with little will power to carry my tired frame with feet pushing the pedals of my bike. Even the power and ideas of typing this blog journal is hard to do with little or no sleep and living off of Starbucks to energize my tired body. I have almost reached my limits of human endurance of 17 hour days more than 5 days a week. I am looking forward to Saturday off where I am going to sleep in a blissful state of Nyquil coma drugged sleep of the dammed.... My neck muscles seem to have grown very tense and hurtful towards me without relaxing in the slightest. I can feel every muscle bunch and pull in its own accord without ever once even considering the possiblity of showing a little mercy on me and just RELAX?!! Is that at all possible in my current state of a over worked (WORK HORSE) That is all right now that I feel that I am good at. I can't seem to focus enough of my thoghts to write a decent blog entry right now so I appologize if this doesn't make sense to you in any way. Hell I do not know if it makes sense to me or not so forgiveness is divine if your that type. My eyelids are slowly creeping down over my eyeballs so I must cut this short and just take a shower and throw my body into bed. Lift the covers over my head and blanket myself against the world without any one interferring with my sleep. I love you all and goodnight. Leave me a message or something if you so feel inclined to do so because I know several of you people are reading without the courteousy of a message. Grins my weak tired smile which looks more like a frown then a smile goodnight. Muah
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Well I am in the don't ask tell policy because fuck heads which will remain nameless seem to endlessly piss me off to where I am fuming out the mouth looking like cujo who is about to be shot and put to sleep. I am so damm angry right now because of lack of responsibility on one's part that I could scream. (Breathes in a deep breathe and holds it so that she doesn't sponateanously combusts from being down right in a super frenzy brujah fighting mood) Besides the fact that I continue to be lied to which is no real big surprise and that the lack of consideration on one's part is beyond contemplation I can only fathom that one is born without an adequate amount of brain power??? Riddle me this?!!! DO you have a working brain cell in that under populated space for rent there or what??? Sigh?!!! I have been working too much to even properly write here and I am definetly not lacking in the info department but I will have to owe some huge updates later when I find the time between working 17 hours a day, sleeping, eating, riding my bike to work, and in there somewhere is much needed hygiene that I can't even possibly go without?!! What do I do with all that much needed sweat removal and yucky stuff at work that I will not mention for all those with sensitive stomaches!!!! Believe me it is not pretty let me tell you.
Well enough on that I am killing myself currently for a car which I have to hopefully get the down payment for in two or three months or less?!!! I am working towards killing myself with overtime to come up with 3 thousand for a nice down on a beautiful car of my choosing??!!! Possible you say I think so and I am willing to die trying?!! A single parent is the world's most ingenius and hard working female on the planet?!!! I tip my hat to all those ladies out there in worst conditions than I may GOD see you through all your troubles!!! Hell I could use a huge hug and a massage anything for a massage baby. aaaah shudders as some forceful fingers are massaging my tired muscles to ecstacy and leaves me in a semi coma state for awhile. Hell I am looking forward to that daydream and I walk around zombie like tending to the needs of my residents while telling myself its all for a good cause and eventually I will have a car and will not have to bike to work 14 miles a day or more!!! GO me. Hell weight loss is not a problem right now I am shedding the pounds away as I bike more and more miles to work and about kill myself!!! Who can I depend on to help me no one but myself?!!! I have learned the hard way that no one will ever take care of me but me!! All others are to be trusted but only so far because I can only disappoint myself and that's good enough for me at this point in my life. I will save marriage or the nunery for another part of my life hopefully the last remaining years because I am through with the dating scene let me live with a moments peace and nice friends to see me through. Well Kiddos I am out of here hope that you are well and happy and I will be talking to you later about the mundane activities of my life. Chow Cassandra
Well enough on that I am killing myself currently for a car which I have to hopefully get the down payment for in two or three months or less?!!! I am working towards killing myself with overtime to come up with 3 thousand for a nice down on a beautiful car of my choosing??!!! Possible you say I think so and I am willing to die trying?!! A single parent is the world's most ingenius and hard working female on the planet?!!! I tip my hat to all those ladies out there in worst conditions than I may GOD see you through all your troubles!!! Hell I could use a huge hug and a massage anything for a massage baby. aaaah shudders as some forceful fingers are massaging my tired muscles to ecstacy and leaves me in a semi coma state for awhile. Hell I am looking forward to that daydream and I walk around zombie like tending to the needs of my residents while telling myself its all for a good cause and eventually I will have a car and will not have to bike to work 14 miles a day or more!!! GO me. Hell weight loss is not a problem right now I am shedding the pounds away as I bike more and more miles to work and about kill myself!!! Who can I depend on to help me no one but myself?!!! I have learned the hard way that no one will ever take care of me but me!! All others are to be trusted but only so far because I can only disappoint myself and that's good enough for me at this point in my life. I will save marriage or the nunery for another part of my life hopefully the last remaining years because I am through with the dating scene let me live with a moments peace and nice friends to see me through. Well Kiddos I am out of here hope that you are well and happy and I will be talking to you later about the mundane activities of my life. Chow Cassandra
Friday, August 01, 2003
The most beautiful and heavenly place on earth that can titalate your taste buds and leave them hungering for more (I have a huge cost budget for that sort of thing) and never seemingly satisfied with just one. Starbucks of course. I have currently going through the most meanest toughest indulgence of my life is there ice cream coffee's that I am sucking down by two a day habit that is costing me a fortune. I think I will get a second job to support my Starbucks habit and start a support group for those who can't get enough of that and can't afford food either. Its either eat lunch or go to starbucks. And you know which one I have been choosing of course starbucks baby!!!! Oh well who needs to eat when you got lovely coffee to seduce your senses in a taste bud orgasm? Hmmm? I ask you what??? But of course there is no correct answer to this dilema of mine!!!!!!!! I am fortunate that I might get hired there pretty soon and all that will be free. Who cares that it is a minium wage job its only part time but the drinks I will consume on a daily basis will more than make up for the petty amount they want to pay me. I will consume at least 20 an hour of wages in about two days go me?!!! And the weight loss continues thanks to a very trenous ride in the fucking heat back and forth to work!!! Dear God my life for a car so that I can work more and get to two jobs in stead of one!!!! I have the opportunity to buy a car from a friend at work and I will see to it that I get it for a 1000. I can have that payed off in two months if I work a shit load of over time at my work which is currently available right now. I have made arrangements for rides to work and I will have to bicycle my happy ass home?!!! (that is an oxymoron if I ever heard one) Cassie has just made a terrrible joke and I do not hear you laughing!!! Here is the dilema right now that I am facing alone and desperately in need of a miracle baby a all powerful God answering miracle of grand porportions. here it is folks.... Cassandra works at her job but getting the kids to and from daycare is solely on my hands and it takes me 30 minutes to bicyle to work. I only have one bike and no way to get kids to and from plus take my daughter to day care plus get her to school. My next dilema fit that in a tiny amount of time like one hour before 3:00 which time I have to bike to work and get them there. Hince you see my problem no transportation no way for me to work I get homeless: kids get taken away : cassie is one unhappy femme and I will most likely die from frustration?!!! Where is the justice in this all?!!! You tell me??? Cassandra is so screwed it is not even funny?!!! God help the single mothers out there in the world they need a break like now please!!! Well I got to do laundry a womens work is never done and I haven't even started yet. Please forgive the negative vibe here I am slightly depressed and my future looks bleak. Ohh the life of a saint is never easy.... GRINS see ya later.....
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