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ever wonder why things happen in your life for a reason i kinda quite wondering and just go with the flow of things. so many many hurdles i have to overcome and i do kicking and screaming along the way. i kinda wonder how my mother did it when she was completely sane and not the wreck that she is today. strange that she can't seem to function in reality without crying and being depressed nothing i can do to help her she has distanced herself from me and from everyone. except mona and my daughter cassie can't trust my daughter to be around her its not safe anymore i know this my mom is disturbed. her thought process is so messed up and she doesnt care anymore the life has taken its toll and whatever that has happened has done damage that cant be fixed. sitting here in my livingroom cold cause i dont want to get a sweater on and i kinda refuse to go get one till this is done. pretty soon ill have to get my girls up so they can go to school and see if i can make magic happen today or not?! not sure if i can pull a rabbit out of my hat and do this wondering always wondering if im going to fail. i hate failure trying to recover enough to not be in this situation but its not happening like i planned. im tired real tired of this... tired of the situation that he put me in tired of trying to get out of the situation but im glad he is gone. one less person to hold up while he is trying to find himself after dao and using me to get there. i gotta move so its going to be some hard decisions on what stuff to bring and what stuff to just throw away i have no one to help me move it so there you go. Keep what i need and just chuck the rest. sad my stuff is fading away and there is nothing i can do about it...
