Dammit well my computer goes on the strike leaving my previous entry an no go so I had to start over with this post. You know I really hate that because usually I don't go into much thought or what topic I am going to post tonight or later. I like the off the cuff stuff so that I can't edit it or take something out of here that would likely offend you peeps who read my blog cause frankly (sorry Frank for taking liberties with your name) I don't give a shit if you like it or not. It's my little piece of the net which I can mold and create as I see fit. Although I personally like it when you do comment to see how well my site is getting its ratings from the public which gives me an idea if I have actually gone too damm far in my word usage or content. I do enjoy shocking the shit out of people with the barest of facts of what I do. I try to go easy on the information that I put here so that you can't find me if you want to stalk me from the internet to my brave little apartment. That would be kind of freaky but you are welcome to bicycle along with me to and from work if you would like. My life is pretty boring unless you count the occasional call from a friend who feels guilty enough to call me.

On a related topic I got a pretty new cell phone with color screen on it with some damm cool pictures which I have promptly named my interesting new phone Jasmine. Not quite sure why I just chose the name off the top of my head. Although it doesn't have the nice cool feature that Priscilla had like a damm alarm to alert me to get up or set ahead on a timer so that I can remember to do my yard checks. It does have a lot more features than my last phone did which text messaging would be cool if you actually want to be kind enough to send me a cheer up you loser message would really make my day... I might go into cardiac arrest but hey that's not your problem.

My cousin Denise called me today from Mississippi to get back in touch which of course you know is one of my favorite cousins because our time was short to get to know her well. But she is pretty awesome and we hit it off well the few weeks we got to make up for all the time we didn't get to play as children. The games we did play when we were together specially with the boys who wanted to flirt with us both. Although they did wonder if we were lesbians a lot because we were always hugging or kissing each others cheeks as the custom to do when you know you only have so much time. I honestly do miss her and would love to have her move up here but that is never going to happen unless a miracle of God will happen to chance her to move down here. She got a divorce from her stupid and idiotic husband who treated my cousin like shit when she is a princess deserving of a handsome prince instead of an ugly redneck cowboy who doesn't know shit from syphilis in my ever opinionated brain. Did I mention that he is a rotting corpse of a man destined to be eaten by maggots when he dies???? (Madame Cassandra predictions always come true the boy will be pushing up daisy in the future you can guarantee that one buddy)

On other news from the work place I have a different shift as well you know but my friend Leticia is moving to another job in a few weeks which I find is sad. I really enjoy working with her plus Vivian and Shunte can't forget my partners in crime. I like yelling out obscenities at passerby's who happen to get the idiot award for being just plain dumb. Shunte bought me some chicken today at Albertson's which I originally asked for a 6inch sandwhich and the gentlemen behind the counter promptly said there are no 6 inches here. Looking at the menu I blushed a fiery red color to match my hair because I had to look up and there directly in huge bold letters says 7 inch sandwhiches and 12 inch subs. I meekly declined the 7 inches when Vivian spoke up and said give me the 7 inches if you dare. He laughed and said he had only 12 inches for her and only if she was hungry enough to eat it all. Being amused at this blantant flirting I stood in the sidelines as Vivian expertly and delicately declined his offer of 12 inches and settled herself into 7 inches of Ham, Turkey, Roast Beef, and salad sandwhich which you know he added extra stuff just because. I laughed when he offered to pay for all of our meal which he did and Shunte (whom previously offered graciously to pay my way) was free from obligations of donating her money to the cause of my rumbling stomache. :::Go me::: I don't know why but Vivian who is extremely attractive for a female always gets free stuff no matter where she goes. Free drinks at clubs, Free food at McDonald's (was a witness to this occasion this is how I ate for free before!!!) ,Rally's which is down the way from our work, and the list could go on forever but that girl has major mojo in her female arsenal. Work it girl work it. ::::cracking up:::::

My friend is currently trying to rid himself of his drug habit which he has been successful so far but there are many obsticals in his way like a drug abusing sister who can't seem to take care of here kids which are a step away from CPS been called on her dumb ass. I can't understand people and there responsibility or how they justify the safety of there children over an addiction to a certain drug. I have never been a drug addict so I do not know first hand what type of feeling you have or the need that takes over your very life but I can be at least sympathetic for awhile. My friend is trying very hard to change his life only thing I can offer him is words of encouragement and hope that he is smart enough to change his ways and know that its never to late to change. I do believe he has it in him to become something other than what he has been doing in the past. I have know him for several years and often wonder at how a smart man could just be plain ass stupid but hey it happens you know.

Okay kiddo's lets fade back a few years back when TMNT's (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles), Garbage Pail Kids (one of my personal favorite's), Leggos which have never gone out of style, and the ever impressive G.I. Joes which I liked Lady Hawk. Why did I mention this because hey peeps out there I personally played with this stuff along with My Little Ponies, Rainbow Brite (Loved her and the beautiful Unicorn), Barbies of course. But I liked Transformers better and would trade them in an instant for Transformers Transformers
which I had to about tackle my brother to play with them. I am sorry but girl toys are so boring sometimes its not funny. But hey I never miss the chance to dress up as a girl from time to time. LOL when I have the time is about right cause when do I have it? Well got to to talk to some peeps yack at you later love always you know who Alloira...

Things I wonder about

Things I wonder about

Have you ever dreamed of a poem but when you woke up your are only left with the feeling but not the words?

Several times as a matter of fact and it makes me frustrated because I know it is probally the most beautiful poem I could have ever created and its lost in my dreams

How in the hell do you get those words out of your head that I know are lingering on your tongue to paper form to express the inner creativity that is lurking its ever elusive head? I want it so bad I can taste it but the ability still evades my creative talents where I feel the most frustration.

I know that I have it in me to write something beautiful and awe inspiring maybe not the drive or the gumption to put it forth from my mind to paper. I have the will but not the power to provoke the magic that Anne Rice and stephen King can evoke with the power of there talent. I am jealous of all hell with there simple inevitable power they can create such remarkable precision. To be able to tell a story and have many people read them. That ultimately is my goal to actually put into words the dreams that I have into reality and put to paper. That would make this girl extremely happy. My friend Jason gave me the bite of the writer with his notebooks of poetry and simple writings of a teenager and a young man in angst. Which I am profoundly grateful for the simple gesture of being the first person to be nosy enough to look and dwell into the depths of an amazing person's soul. I feel that simple touch of generosity exploded something inside me to share what little gift I have with words to share with the world. I do not hold any illusions that I will ever be a famous writer but it would be nice to have experienced something the angst in writing a novel and get recognition for your works.

Take my friend Sandman who is incredibly talented with his artwork as well as a struggling writer whom I know will make an excellent novelist given half the chance. I believe in the magic of his world and hope that his dreams come true whatever lies in that secret heart of his. He has talent out the wazoo that could still even the darkest of hearts.

My friend John who can capture your soul in a picture has the amazing gift of taking photos. Although he has yet to take it to the next level I believe that his talents are just emerging and can fully awaken when he puts a little more energy and direction to it. But I do believe he would make an excellent photographer of naked women because he would seriously die and be happy....

Do I believe that a perhaps a benevolent soul will come into my life and change my future?

I doubt it because I have a serious run of bad luck but I am ever persistent in my believe that things happen for a reason and maybe you have to work hard at something you want. Even if its not exactly what you had in mind. That the powers that be know exactly where you need to be and when one door closes several others are there taking its place even though it might not be exactly what you want. Somewhere down the road you will find out what the true meaning of it will be. What that is exactly and where I am going has always been a mystery to even me but I am ever determined to make my mark on this world whether it be good or bad. Mostly I hope that I can leave a piece of me behind that others may understand me for the person that I am not the illusions that I like to surround myself and share with you.

What I would like to be is someone who is loved and cherished by someone who could ultimately change her perception of the world around her. Change all this dark and grey matter to something as brillant as a rainbow in the sky. I have longed for something to be beautiful as the time of a first kiss as you experience anothers lips upon your soft gentle flesh. That feeling of a first tenative spark that sets your heart pounding in your chest and a rush of blood roaring in your veins. I know that all this is possible with the right person in your life. I know this is probally confusing to some of you that reads my blog on a daily basis. I feel like this 90% of my life and have grown attached to my friends emotionally. That if there were to die that part of me would die with them. I have had several dreams where I have woke up crying because I dreamed of there death. I know that when they die I will feel shattered and useless that the light that I have in my heart will dim with there passing. That life will weigh heavy on my heart till I feel the urge to scream or cry and talk to them as if they were still alive. I have had conversations with my friends when I pray to them when they have passed over. That I keep them in my heart is a testiment to there memory. That I love you enough to make you a very necessary part of my life. Okay I am going now I have said to much... But my friends are my life in the essence that they keep me sane in there ever quest to sort out there own issues...

Blue skin equals love...

Blue skin is so sexy specially on him



Well I find this guy extremely attractive because of the markings on his body and that his character is widely misunderstood in the movie until the end... But I have always like the actor himself in his 007 days playing a computer nerd turned traitor... Enjoy

Music to Soothe the Savage Beast

Music moves me in a way that soothe my soul in its stumbling nature as I putter around trembling in my heart. I can get lost in the lyrics where for a time I am beside myself. Walking along like a dear lost friend observing the different aspects of my life where problems seem stupid and petty. I can forget for a time the rain pouring down on my forehead chipping away the hard foundation that creates me. Weighing down my soul along with my clothing as I bicycle along day dreaming and listening to the music that is going on in my headphones. This is what keeps me going when I ride 14 miles to work and back the endless thought that hey at least my bills are getting paid and I am not homeless this month. That I am doing this by myself with no help from no one that is a huge medal on my chest.

New Updates: Poetry

Well low and behold I wrote some new poetry nothing too fancy but hey its me in a nutshell so I hope that you can enjoy it. Nothing much happening here except that I am waiting for my Neohome to be built which takes a few hours to do one room at a time which is extremely frustrating and specially when you put in the furniture for your neopet and it doesn't stay where you put it. So when you go to review the room it is bunched up in the corner like a hurricane hit the room with severe force!!! Oh well you can't really expect much from a free online game spot. Well dear readers I got to go to bed I hope that you enjoy the poetry which I will be posting time to time when I get inspired to write something emotional in words. CHow

On a side note: Have you noticed when you click on to the links that the stars come out to whisk you off to another world. I do not know if you have noticed but it reminds me of fairy dust and pixie trickery...

Neo Pets are awesome

Well just got back from playing Neo Pets Online which is totally fun and I am addicted. Childish I know but hey its my life right. Well not much going on except that I like my new shift in the mornings except when it rains. They have forcasted showers tomorrow so I am hoping it will wait till I ride my bike to work and wait till I get home! Do you think I will get lucky??? Probally not but here's hoping that a little ray of sunshine will follow me all the way to work. Please Please pretty please.. Well got to go enjoy the new link... Muah Cassandra

Dying to be young

...::Dying to be Young::...

Okay kiddo's I am going to tell you an embarrasing truth about myself that if you go and tell everyone I will have to definetely kill you. So please keep this secret between you and me. As you probally know I dyed my hair the other day a :::Gothic Red Color::: that leans toward dark blood red which next week I am going to chunk it black and add red sheen highlights towards the tips of the hair just because I can... Well during the dying process since I have done this many a time I forgot the #1 rule of dying add a little lotion or vasaline around the neckline which subsequently died all my facial hair on my cheeks a beautiful dark red. Which as you know females normally have very fuzzy like downy hair upon there body everywhere even though you may not see it. Well guess what it was now promently displayed upon my person which comes to the secret I am currently in the process of discribing. I tried scrubbing the crap out of my face in vain hopes of removing whatever lingering layers of flesh that I have off. But alas a reddened face later I still have a full beard of red going on like I was a dude or something. Being the ever resourceful person that I am I promptly pulled out the ole shaving kit and took a hatchet job on my cheeks and neck to remove the embarrasing sight of me screwing up again. But I still have a delightful trail on my back where the hair is now a dark red on my back instead of being delightfully invisible. I look like a treasure trail that is usually on guys on my back. Although be it the hair is only fuzzies on my back high lighted red instead of long hair with burly patches on the stomache. So I got this kind of cat women cross species thing going on with my body. I was almost smart ass enough to dye my hair down in my neither region but hey I am bald as a baby down there due to frequent lawn mower action down there. Brings to mind a weed wacker and you probally got the idea. Okay I can admit it I don't have the patience to make a cute little design down there by trying to give myself a hair cut. I don't like body hair on me at all which explains why I shave my arms because hair is pretty unsightly. When given the chance I am going to have laser removal surgery performed on me to remove all unwanted hair which means I will save a bundle in razors, shaving cream, and leg moisturizor... Hell I can spend it on more entertaining things like videogames and a new playstation that is coming out soon

So yeah back to the story I had to shave my face which I am praying that will not turn in to a full blown beard if that happens I will take out a loan and get my face lasered for sure cause I am not going through my life with a full blown beard. :::insert laughter::: I just told you my dying disaster stayed tuned for next weeks laughter when I go back to chunk it black and add a little red sheens to it. That should be interesting specially towards my bodily hair that seems to catch hold and take the color into there bosoms. Well more later... Muah (insert kissing sounds to your cheeks)

I figured out what I want in life which is pretty simple in its barest terms and most of you peeps out there will understand fully what I mean. I want to go to sleep with a man who doesn't want to sleep with me (okay he wants to) but just want to hold me. I want someone to love me exactly for who and what I am even if I am the angriest person on the planet. Even though my bad traits out weigh my good traits that wouldn't matter. I haven't been held or kissed by someone who truly loves me in a long time. I miss the feeling of a connection that isn't sexual in nature. The type of cuddly full body holding which I have affectionately called Cuddle Bunny. See dear folks I can live without sex contrary to popular belief and my constant raving of sexual intent. I want love in its barest forms and hey its a plus if its shown and affectionate in its sexual expression with its basic form. Although I have to admit that I like sex very much because its raw passion in its most primal form. There are times when I just want to sit next to a person and want to feel there arms around me holding me closely till I can feel there heartbeat hypnotically lolling me to sleep. I find the most simple gestures like kissing to be more stimulating and more memorable than all the thousand of creative positions you can create up in sex. For once without the ruining of the fragile illusion of love be caught up in a moment of pure and utter bliss of a heartfelt passion filled kiss. This is all I ask before I die is a true love's first kiss after that hell I can live with a lot of things which I have done for most of my life. But don't take away my dream of maybe one day a lucky gentlemen down the road actually cherishing me for the simple fact of being Cassandra Renee Ellis. Not that I truly think this will happen becuase there are 27 year old virgins out there who still are waiting for marriage before partaking in the pleausres of the flesh which in all trappings includes love... I go to sleep with the barest and shattered hope that one day I can ease this burden that weighs my heart down trapping me inside this cave of sadness I bear. Sometimes the bitterness gets so thick that I fight for control within the crumbling stress that surrounds my daily live and my future. I can't help feeling that even my best efforts are not good enough and that no matter how hard I try I just might fail. This literally scares the ever living hell out of me that I, Cassandra can't figure out a solution to a problem that I am famously able to come up with answers. Maybe answers that you might not like but they are quite in fact chooses which some people might not even have the option for in the first place.

I keep being told lately which I know is true that my picture shows profound sadness which I didn't realize that I was so transparent in nature. I thought that my acting skills was better than I was led to believe so I must be ever diligent and keep constant watch upon my expressive feelings. To be honest I feel like I have lived so many lifetimes in my mere 27 years and I am not looking forward to the future because my life is such a struggle. Hell I was even tempted to write to Sharon Osborne of my trouble so that she could find some big wig corporate office to help me out a little bit while I humiliate myself on national tv by crying because they got me a car. I know that all composure would be lost if they did that because I would think hey all I got to do is pay the insurance on that and car tax. All else the big part has been paid for ::::go me::: which normally with interest compounding can rape you blind. Well Goodnight readers I am off to bed because my son wants more attention and it's hard to type this one handed but as you can tell I did a splended job.

Muah :::insert kissy face sound:::: (wipe of blood red lipstick) hey it matches the hair.

Nighty night night....

Music is the spice of LIfe

Music is the spice of Life...

Current music: Avril Lavigne Things I'll never say
(Singing to the music)(dancing in my chair)(singing to my computer screen)

As you can very well tell that there is music now on my blog as I get more HMTL educated (yeah right) :::::insert laughter:::: I learn how to do a little more each day and I encorporate what I learn into my blog which makes a very happy me when I have it the way I want it. I am figuring out animated pictures which I will somehow plug in later when I figure out where to paste the code at. Not easy as it seems but hey I am learning and the book that I have been absorbing like a sponge hey maybe I am smarter than I think? Hmmm maybe not!!!

Anyways the addittude from Brandon increases everyday because I am lacking with whatever I can to help him out financially. Hell I don't know what the hell I can do anymore because I am like a couple steps out the door from my work because they have put false write ups in my folder. Somehow they got the smart idea those evil ass charge nurses Donna and Celia decided to write me up everyday on written warnings that I never signed or even knew about it so there you go. I am currently trying to look for different work at the hospital so that they can pay me more for less work so that I can get a part time job somewhere anywhere as long there is two incomes. I can't depend on no one but myself because hell they don't care enough to help me in the first place. Case in point of actually sticking by my side and declaring there ever lasting love. (laughs) That will be the day that I could ever trust someone enough to let him in my heart as in everlasting love. I do not put hopes in dreams into something that can never be because I know that there will never be another person to love me like myself. If I love myself than that's good enough because men in general suck rocks.

Current Music: Skid Row Remember Yesterday

(Singing to the music)(dancing in my chair)(singing to my computer screen)

On the good part of the day I got to change my assigned shift to A.m. shift which has worked out pretty well because I don't have evil ass charge nurses breathing there vile thoughts down my neck depressing the shit out of me. I actually considered quitting my job because I felt like I was doing something absolutely wrong like actually be myself. Hell fuck the stupid bitches who can't handle a person standing up for herself when another employee sexually harasses her by making inapproperate remarks. And trying to get physically confrontational by backing me up into a corner and just plain being mean to me. I am not scared of the person just the fact that he caught me off guard by coming out of nowhere and I threatened him with a dirty diaper. Should of seen the look on his face when I threatened to wipe shit on him from a resident that has diarrhea. Changed his toon quick, fast, and in a hurry never moved so fast out of my general direction in his life.

Current Music: Lillix Tomorrow
(Singing to the music)(dancing in my chair)(singing to my computer screen)

So I am looking forward to January where I can purchase a new car so that I do not ever have to ride my bike to work ever. I will take my two kids to the park or where ever I want without having to wait upon some good soul to take me. I hate that I have to freeze my ass off to get to work and if it rains GOD help me because it will not be cool. But you have to do what you have to do to get by and make sure your kids are not homeless....

On a positive note I have been throughly humbled by my different circumstances that I will appreciate more the stuff given to me or earned in the near future. (singing still)

I talked to my neighbors who are two struggling teenagers living together under bizarre circumstances making a meager existance on there own. Well things are looking up for them because they have a job to support themselves with there families help.

Well back to cleaning my room talk to you later probally tomorrow or hopefully later...

The Spirit of Halloween

Hey all its Halloween,

Since my daughter also wonderfully named after me Cassandra has a birthday today which her father came down on the Grey Hound. Although he got in a minor Bus accident due to some bodies fault which I am not sure whom at the moment because it is hear say from the uninterested help behind a fat desk... My daughter pouted and looked down because Moe wasn't here on time and that she was looking forward to seeing him. But a quick trip to Wally World made all the difference when she got to pick out her fish instead of watching the clock tick by slowly. Have you ever noticed that when the you are waiting time seems to crawl by so damm slow its not even funny. But if you are Having fun time goes by so fast that you hardly know where it went and its time to go home....
Going to have a birthday party for my daughter around 4:00 when her father gets here and when my mother gets back from picking up her boyfriend. This should be an interesting gathering tonight of different folks in a tight space trying to wolf down some delicious cake. Hey she likes harry potter and I decided to make a scary cake and add Harry Potter design of my own choosing. It came out damm good and I am pretty proud of myself for coming up with the idea. Cassandra requested a Halloween Cake this year to celebrate her birthday. Which I was hesitant to obliged cause I like the pretty frilly girlie cakes but I gave in and its a total success. Besides it's not about what I want but what she wants right?!!!

Not dressing up for Halloween poor me because I can't seriously afford it but hey I am in my favorite Doc Martens shoes that you know anybody who is anybody wears them. If not you are not anybody I guess.(insert laughter here)

On other news I am going to dye my hair dark red again with some black chunks in it plus some red shine highlights that will look pretty cool. I got the idea of Julie Vue who did her hair with Blue Shine Highlights that looked really good. Plus she has this gorgeous black hair that goes down her back reminded me of a Persian cat with those hypnotic eyes. She is really a great person plus dear readers she is also a piercist professional person. She pierced my nose for me and it cost hardly anything because I was her friend... ...:::GO ME:::...

Well Readers I must be off to cause some mayhem and chaos wish me luck :::smiles evilly:::: this is supposed to be the night when the veil between the dead and the living is at its thinnest. HMMMM I wonder who wants to talk to me from the other side?!!! I am hoping for King David, Elvis, Marilyn Monroe, John F. Kennedy, Bloody Mary, and whomever else wants to come a calling to visit me. Happy Halloween to all your peeps out there goodnight....



Tori looks absolutely beautiful in this faery Picture that just naturally accents her inner beauty like she actually needs the help. She is fabulous darling simply fabulous...

The Beautiful Tori Amos whom I love as a singer and a survivor of rape who beautifully and energetically fights back by being the strong woman we see today. She is one of my hero's whom I look up to because she speaks so openly and candid about exactly what happened to her. You are in my heart and prayers as always. Us females got to stick together against the nasty ugly males out there who don't know how to take no for an answer. You will get yours in the end buddy cause GOD will get you...

updates

Revamped and took some stuff off and just added to the links in here so that you can navigate around a little easier... Plus saves on the loading time of my blog by a few seconds which helps if you are on dial up. I will continue to provide a little bit more information here so that I can better serve you lol. Like that will happen but hey its my blog I can write whatever I want. I have been web designing taking a little from here and a little from there to make the sight better I hope that you appreciate my effort...

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My horrible scope

Appearances matter a lot. Dress to attract and impress. Although styles come and go, they draw attention to your permanent inner beauty. Someone looking toward a shared future with you likes what he or she sees right now.

...:::Time to reflect:::...

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...:::Time to reflect:::...

My best friend Antionette is gong through some major issues and since my damm cell phone is messing up I couldn't call her in her time of need. So I took the liberty of taking her to lunch where we had a nice bitch out session over the things in our lives that we need fixed. Mostly its men in general and add the problems at work makes life a little miserable to handle. But being the ever pessimistic person that I am I deal with it like any other person I begin to systematically hate there guts. The old me would have seeked revenge upon them with an utter ruthlessness that would defy reason but I have improved myself greatly upon my flaws. I don't want to hate a person just because they are crappy to me because they have nothing better to do in there lives then to make me miserable. Hell I will find a way to deal with the situation eternally and forget that you ever existed in the first place. Not that I am any better than you in the first place just that I can believe that there are things that need to be taken care of and you just not one of them....

My friend Antionette is so hurting because of her vendictive ex-husband has it in his mind that because she doesn't need him for her soul existance that he will make her life a living hell. She is a remarkably strong person that she is so giving, thoughtful, and wonderful that at times when I was feeling bad she helped me get through. I am trying in all my resources to give back what she gives to me on a daily basis. So I pray for her life to get better in the simplist ways possible. She cries and I can't seem to find the words to help her out when she is going through this and it makes me feel bad. I can feel the the emotional raw wounds that she is carrying and it breaks my heart that another human being would want to inflict such sorrow upon a undeserving person. I for one can handle whatever people throw at me and be irritated and throw it off but some people take it inside of them and carry it for awhile. I reflect eternally and see what I can change so that people will leave me the hell alone. Although my mouth which generally as a rule can be very lethal when I am provoked has caused me to get into trouble. I can't control my nature of fighting back at you when I am pushed too far either I start crying and get seriously angry to the point where I want to hit you or I walk away never to return and just regroup. Either way I end up crying and trying to figure out how to avoid that situation in the near future.

I will tell you honestly that I do not want anybody in my heart but I have several people whom I love deeply. They are my friends and when they hurt it hurts me because I am powerless to stop whatever is affecting them at the moment. That bothers me because what use am I to them if I can help them in there time of need.

Gary the sex God

And now for the best part the sexy gorgeous marvel of a man can write poetry like there is no tomorrow. Although his talents lean towards writing music and tantalyzing us with his images on screen which is will be a famous actor. Yeah folks you have heard it first here. This man will be famous. Coughs :::I promise I am not obsessed folks just stating facts not fiction::::

...:::The poetry in all its splendor:::...
(You know I just love poetry right?)


WHAT I WANT

love of an eye
first sight in the morning
light reflects your face
your contours make me log to embrace.

yearning inside
for the moment of your kiss
can I help the feeling
because you give me this

I will travel
over all types of gravel
whatever I have to do
to show you that I love you

If you ever pass away
I hate this thought everyday
I would never leave your side
whatever the ride

because you are my life
reflections of you is my might
whatever you do
remember I will always love you




SEX IS EMOTION IN MOTION



sex is sex
remember its free
sex made you
and sex made me

and when its time to change position
from the bed to the floor
your eyes of suspition
your honey pot wanting more

your juices
my lotion,
my pleasure
your potion

deep inside
she's pushing back
said, my lover
never stop taking me like that

twisted white hearts
showering my love
all playing their part
like moses dove


Now his beautiful canine companion who just was looking at me with those big brown soulful eyes I just had to make him apart of my little blogging world... Welcome Kernal!

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Added a few more stuff today which took most of my time before work. Hopefully this looks better than what I was putting here before?? Just give me some feedback because your opinions matter to me greatly. One of my online friends gave me a compliment today about my blog says it looks nicer than the last one which is totally great. My idea of using this blog better than my last one was the soul reason to change it. That and I didn't have another choice since my last one got erased. CRY CRY CRY WHINE WHINE WHINE BITCH BITCH BITCH Wipes tears off face okay my weak moment is through. I lost so much from my last blog that I could cry. I still have to figure out how to plug in some images to this blog which I am unfortunately pulling my hair out to make it interact with this new blog without it looking stupid. OH well I have the patience and the time to scream my bloody ear drums raw till I get it right. Plus I am meticulous when it comes to doing this so lookout peeps I am coming back with a vengeance... Well I am off to add some more stuff. The comment box is back if you want to be kind enough to leave a few messages. Talk to you peeps later... Sincerely Cassandra

I had to revamp the ole blog because my template accidentally got erased being the ever resourceful person I am. I just looked for me another one and put it here. SO over the next few days I will be adding more stuff on here to actually have it mine instead of another's. Thank you Maystar designs for kindly putting up with my inquires and for designing this nice little blog. I appreciate your effort upon our ungrateful bloggers out there. I will leave a link to her site so that if you all want to take a gander yourself you will be able to switch out your blogs pretty effortlessly. I recommend saving your template just in case something like my accident happens to you.

On another note I am not looking forward to going to work but you know how that is but maybe just maybe they will not be there. Ye Gods I must look for another place to work quick fast and in a hurry. Hopefully things will look better. Sincerely, Cassandra

A new friend online

Thanks to Gary who giving in to my intolerable demands upon his personal time in sending me pictures of himself and the place he lives England. I have to admit he is an exceptionally attractive man with a remarkable heart to boot. Very interesting to talk to when he explains exactly what and whom he hangs out with. He believes very strongly in justice and the moral fiber he cares reminds me of a knight in the medieval ages of old. His pictures are very flattering for a older male since he keeps thinking he is so old he can't continue his acting career but I honestly think that they are missing in an extraordinary person. But that's just my humble opinion which in the acting world means just about the same as in my world diddly squat. But alas he deserves some praise for putting up with my demands for a picture by sending me more than what I asked for. Thank you so much Gary for taking the time to send I appreciate the effort you gave in please a person you don't know whatsoever. Again on to Gary who has extraordinary beautiful blue eyes that could stop a women in her tracks ten feet away. That's what stuck me about him first was that gorgeous smile of his which is quite striking to say the least. Then he has to pair it off with a beautiful pair of eyes (deep penetrating blue) that could melt even the iciest of hearts. Plus gentle readers he is still available for the lucky female to win his heart so I say to you snag that damm English stud before someone smarter comes along to wisk his heart away. Plus he can dress like a medieval hero in a sexy garb he definitely deserves some second or third glances. Well here is his pictures for your viewing pleasure because he just had to get his spot on my web... Muah enjoy... Cause I will be drooling for a week. There is a god in heaven because he can make a mold so perfect its like he is an angel in disguise tempting us in his mortal flesh with heavenly kisses.... (hell I wish)


The eyes are electric in there intense piercing gaze. I could write some serious poetry around this guys eyes which I think I will and post later with the poem. The intensity is visually stunning in the fact that you can almost feel him piercing your soul.

This man is the total package so hey stupid women in England hog tie this man take him home and make him fall in love with you.
I particularly like this one of him specially since I am into medieval clothing as you well know. His smlle is electric in its innocent pleasure of just simply being him... These are my impressions since I do not in fact know this person.

Again the eyes are the first thing I notice as well as the devishly handsome stunning male speciment shining in a full suit. Can't really tell the exact color so I am hoping its black (sorry if I am wrong). but he is a dashing figure of a man...

Drool Drool Drool okay I am dropping dead from exhaustion but he is worth being the very last image of my mind before these green eyes of mine drop off to sleep. NIght



I like this one because he seems more layed back and at ease with his surroundings. It's more of a soft look without all the piercing and things I normally look at in a man. He is truly a classic beauty in the sense that his preconceived notions that he is visually ugly to his minds eye. I know that we are our own worst enemy because we can see flaws when they are none seen.


Now here is a hint of a smile that follows up to his eyes. I wonder what he would look like actually being truly happy. I bet in my humble opinion that he would be visually stunning with electric blue eyes sparkle like sapphires. Can you tell I am an eye person they say more to you then a thousand words could possibly say.

Goals

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My Hopes and Dreams

Well to begin with I never used to want anything beyond what I thought I deserved. More and more I decided I wanted something more for myself like acutally setting goals for myself. I had a problem with actually getting stuff done on time until I got tired of actually doing nothing. Before I didn't have any goals in mind like where I wanted to go or what i wanted to be. See when you are small you dream of getting married and that becomes your life. Well I found out that to make yourself others happy you first have to be happy to begin with by knowing yourself.
So thats why I believe that love will come to you when you need it not when you want it...