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today I woke up with a complete and utter sore throat Megan woke me up to her Cat SINGING b day card omg its pretty cute. Went shopping with her got two capri pants and two knock out shirts pretty awesome purple and pink black combination megan says they are flashy how else are you going to get distracted unless its to draw attention away from my books hello folks look at my face. I have amazing green eyes that are deep and soulful. Im just waiting for the whole world to catch up to the idea that Im fucking awesome grins. Oh wells people are slow learners and you all cant have Team Cassie T-shirts I guess only the cool ones grins. Did I mention my throat is sore as hell people kepted wanting me to talk to them sad face. I avoided calling my cousin like I should because it was really too painful to talk. Im hella tired you know really tired so this isnt making sense shoot me put me out of my misery. Watching Burlesque show hella cool but I like stuff like that go figure.
Went and walked for an hour while listening to my Ipod sang some danced some just plain was goofy yes I dont care what you think. I was in my own little world for awhile and then I was like three blocks from the house and realized I was starving and headed home All I ate today was my kung pao chicken. Hard to eat when swallowing hurts like a mo fo you have no idea really.
Going to start the book Bryan got me tomorrow I have read all of Megans books already Havent told her cause it would probally make her mad including the new ones smiles I read about two books a day sometimes more sometimes less depending on the nature of the books if they are interesting I consume them easily. I like reading its one of my favorite things to do James use to get mad at me that I would block out everything and just be gone for a few hours he was like how can you read and find that entertaining. Hell idiot how can you not? Smiles but look at where he is at right now and then we can all laugh together.
I feel pretty today I blacked my green eyes so they would pop wore light eyeshadow and a pretty burgandy pink lipstick to match my hair and bow instant hottie again. yeah I know im pretty but Im not conceited may sound like it but I grew up ugly lol this is no joke. I have horror stories growing up and I learned at age 7 to defend myself and my brother till he started in on me to be in the in crowd. Well now look at me asshats you want to date me now but I wont have nothing to do with you go figure.
I end this blog with the same thought I had when I woke up this morning going why me lord why me with my throat on fire and Jades voice going mommy can I cuddle with you. Stayed in bed a little while longer rubbing Jades back till she fell asleep again then listening her snore in my ear was cute because thats our thing either painting nails or cuddling. She hugs me entirely way to much but I guess thats the way Jade is shes a hugger. Walks up to total strangers hugs them or starts a conversation she is fearless that kid.
My chinese fighting fish Mango is currently starring at me intently I think he wants to be fed or something but I fed him this morning. Cassie would kill me if I killed her fish from over feeding the poor bugger. Cause everytime I move my hands he swims to the surface acting like there is something there and then stares at me. Kinda creeps me out a little Im like i wont look away first hell no fish your not going to win this battle of wills. But Mango has home field advantage if I dont blink my eyes dry up for the lack of moisture. If he keeps his eyes open he is lubricated already no fair no fair no fair.
Gots to put poetry in this new book I bought Jade wrote all over the one Blaine gave me when I turned 21 So I have to find another lined book to put in there. I still love its awesome green cover its amazing the celtic design on its priceless. I have to put my besties poetry in there so if something happens to my damm computer I can read his shit and be amused bewildered and awed by the fact that some human can capture moments like that and put it to pen and paper. Im amazed and awed by him completely you have no idea. I am this lucky girl who decided to strike up a conversation with a random stranger one night in vent and discover this amazing person. I have an awesome friend I know this he is going to be one of those essential people you know. I cant wait till he gets married so I can see all the little spawn that come from him and her so I can see how wonderful they are going to be you know. I think tonight I will pray for someone for him so he can be happy again or ask god to send his girl back down to him again. I believe in Second chances why cant he have it?
I was thinking about the love thing and who in this life when I die was the love of my life. Pretty easy only one person has captured my heart I still love him. I love my friends and past lovers dont get me wrong but the first cut is the deepest. Where you give your all to a person who either loves you back or they dont. In this case he didnt love me enough to tell the truth. I cant listen to All 4 One without crying. When your a girl growing up with your mom being beaten on by your dad you pretty much have a clear understanding how guys arent supposed to act. I told myself that I would never let a man hit me without fucking the ever living shit out of him in return. This has been the case all my life you touch me I guarantee that whatever touches me imma break the fucker off. My mother is traumatized from this from a very young age I cant ever let someone belittle me or disrespect me my hand punches your dumb ass in the face without thinking knee jerk reaction. To my shitty ass father Marvin Charles Morris next time I see your ass imma kick it you owe my mother an appology for being a complete and utter shit. I try hard not to act like you my mother says its in my nature to be bad I believe her my father has been in and out of prisons and I have tried hard not to follow in his footsteps. Knock on wood I am nothing like him I am more then afraid that I am like my mother. My temper isnt as bad as my mother she doesnt think about hitting people she just does it. I usually can see the signs before I go apeshit unless it has something to do with my kids.
Hmm my list of why I woke up
chocolate cake with red frosting
poetry
wanted sex but didnt get it my choice
world of warcraft
hanging with my friends
my everyday cuddle session with jade
books
green tea with lemon honey and sugar
cinnamon raison bagel with cream cheese
The color purple
Nail polish my addiction is growing
Pictures that I want to see
Listening to my favorite person talk
today I woke up with a complete and utter sore throat Megan woke me up to her Cat SINGING b day card omg its pretty cute. Went shopping with her got two capri pants and two knock out shirts pretty awesome purple and pink black combination megan says they are flashy how else are you going to get distracted unless its to draw attention away from my books hello folks look at my face. I have amazing green eyes that are deep and soulful. Im just waiting for the whole world to catch up to the idea that Im fucking awesome grins. Oh wells people are slow learners and you all cant have Team Cassie T-shirts I guess only the cool ones grins. Did I mention my throat is sore as hell people kepted wanting me to talk to them sad face. I avoided calling my cousin like I should because it was really too painful to talk. Im hella tired you know really tired so this isnt making sense shoot me put me out of my misery. Watching Burlesque show hella cool but I like stuff like that go figure.
Went and walked for an hour while listening to my Ipod sang some danced some just plain was goofy yes I dont care what you think. I was in my own little world for awhile and then I was like three blocks from the house and realized I was starving and headed home All I ate today was my kung pao chicken. Hard to eat when swallowing hurts like a mo fo you have no idea really.
Going to start the book Bryan got me tomorrow I have read all of Megans books already Havent told her cause it would probally make her mad including the new ones smiles I read about two books a day sometimes more sometimes less depending on the nature of the books if they are interesting I consume them easily. I like reading its one of my favorite things to do James use to get mad at me that I would block out everything and just be gone for a few hours he was like how can you read and find that entertaining. Hell idiot how can you not? Smiles but look at where he is at right now and then we can all laugh together.
I feel pretty today I blacked my green eyes so they would pop wore light eyeshadow and a pretty burgandy pink lipstick to match my hair and bow instant hottie again. yeah I know im pretty but Im not conceited may sound like it but I grew up ugly lol this is no joke. I have horror stories growing up and I learned at age 7 to defend myself and my brother till he started in on me to be in the in crowd. Well now look at me asshats you want to date me now but I wont have nothing to do with you go figure.
I end this blog with the same thought I had when I woke up this morning going why me lord why me with my throat on fire and Jades voice going mommy can I cuddle with you. Stayed in bed a little while longer rubbing Jades back till she fell asleep again then listening her snore in my ear was cute because thats our thing either painting nails or cuddling. She hugs me entirely way to much but I guess thats the way Jade is shes a hugger. Walks up to total strangers hugs them or starts a conversation she is fearless that kid.
My chinese fighting fish Mango is currently starring at me intently I think he wants to be fed or something but I fed him this morning. Cassie would kill me if I killed her fish from over feeding the poor bugger. Cause everytime I move my hands he swims to the surface acting like there is something there and then stares at me. Kinda creeps me out a little Im like i wont look away first hell no fish your not going to win this battle of wills. But Mango has home field advantage if I dont blink my eyes dry up for the lack of moisture. If he keeps his eyes open he is lubricated already no fair no fair no fair.
Gots to put poetry in this new book I bought Jade wrote all over the one Blaine gave me when I turned 21 So I have to find another lined book to put in there. I still love its awesome green cover its amazing the celtic design on its priceless. I have to put my besties poetry in there so if something happens to my damm computer I can read his shit and be amused bewildered and awed by the fact that some human can capture moments like that and put it to pen and paper. Im amazed and awed by him completely you have no idea. I am this lucky girl who decided to strike up a conversation with a random stranger one night in vent and discover this amazing person. I have an awesome friend I know this he is going to be one of those essential people you know. I cant wait till he gets married so I can see all the little spawn that come from him and her so I can see how wonderful they are going to be you know. I think tonight I will pray for someone for him so he can be happy again or ask god to send his girl back down to him again. I believe in Second chances why cant he have it?
I was thinking about the love thing and who in this life when I die was the love of my life. Pretty easy only one person has captured my heart I still love him. I love my friends and past lovers dont get me wrong but the first cut is the deepest. Where you give your all to a person who either loves you back or they dont. In this case he didnt love me enough to tell the truth. I cant listen to All 4 One without crying. When your a girl growing up with your mom being beaten on by your dad you pretty much have a clear understanding how guys arent supposed to act. I told myself that I would never let a man hit me without fucking the ever living shit out of him in return. This has been the case all my life you touch me I guarantee that whatever touches me imma break the fucker off. My mother is traumatized from this from a very young age I cant ever let someone belittle me or disrespect me my hand punches your dumb ass in the face without thinking knee jerk reaction. To my shitty ass father Marvin Charles Morris next time I see your ass imma kick it you owe my mother an appology for being a complete and utter shit. I try hard not to act like you my mother says its in my nature to be bad I believe her my father has been in and out of prisons and I have tried hard not to follow in his footsteps. Knock on wood I am nothing like him I am more then afraid that I am like my mother. My temper isnt as bad as my mother she doesnt think about hitting people she just does it. I usually can see the signs before I go apeshit unless it has something to do with my kids.
Hmm my list of why I woke up
chocolate cake with red frosting
poetry
wanted sex but didnt get it my choice
world of warcraft
hanging with my friends
my everyday cuddle session with jade
books
green tea with lemon honey and sugar
cinnamon raison bagel with cream cheese
The color purple
Nail polish my addiction is growing
Pictures that I want to see
Listening to my favorite person talk
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